The devil messes with me quite regularly. Very subtly by putting doubt and fear and all of that junk in my head. He is a crafty fella but I'm learning to recognize it. Today he is messin' with me 'cuz I think he's scared.
This morning I get up and am happy and praying and so looking forward to the upcoming fast. I have some decisions to make as I am training to run the Dam to Dam (20k) in June and a fast would NOT be good for that training. How will I fast? Will I totally suspend my training? Lots of stuff to consider and pray about so I have been talkin' to the Big Guy about it. No answers yet, just talkin'.
I get in my car (LATE, btw) to head to work and put in my favorite CD....Jeremy Camp live somthin' or other. Jeremy and I are jammin' and I have my cruise SET. SET ON 59 in a 55. Ok....I know. Speed limit is 55 but.... The song "Empty Me" is playing (it should be playing right now as you read this - just turn your speakers up). It is AWESOME. God was helping me understand why He wants me to fast.
Anyway, next thing I know I AM GETTING PULLED OVER by a very grumpy State Trooper! For going 59! I was shocked. I asked him how fast I was going and told him I had my cruise set (which honestly I never do....I dislike the inability of "feeling" my car when I drive). He said I was going 59! He then proceeded around my car in what I assume was an inspection. THANKFULLY all my lights were in working order. He retreated to his car and came back with a Warning. THANK GOD. I have too many tickets....buts that's another post for another day. :0)
Off I go. WITH MY CRUISE NOW SET AT 55. Yes. I am crawling.
I finally get to the parking garage (really late now). I get in the back seat to grab my bag and I accidentally pulled out another bag of 10 Christ-inspired picture frames to drop off at church for one of our pastors hospital ministry. I think I can honestly HEAR the devil laughing as they crash to the ground. NOW....I'm STEAMING. Literally sweating I am so mad.
And in that very moment I realize what is happening. He is trying to steal my day. But the fat bastard can't have it! As I was walking to work (thanking God nothing broke) I was reciting in my head all the verses I can think of to let him know he is NOT gonna get me today.
It's been a long morning as there are many other little things he is putting before me. Part of the testing is making me realize I do have a strong desire to shoo him away and I am learning very quickly that I can with God's help. The devil knows now that my desire to seek God's face more closely will not be deterred by him and his antics!
"Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through
anything in the One who makes me who I am."
~ Philippians 4:13 (The Message)
JC is my BFF!!!!