Friday, April 30, 2010

Oh, my heart, my soul....

How I needed to hear this today (scroll down and turn off my blog music before you play it). Thanks to MckMama for posting this of her precious son and how he has changed (and softened) my heart right this very second....and forever. If it's possible to wear a video out, I've alsolutely done so already. To have the faith and conviction of a three year old.....sigh.

My God Is So Big from Jennifer McKinney on Vimeo.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Go read this....

"A Letter From God" by Gordon Atkinson at High Calling Blogs. LOVE.IT.TO.PIECES.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Big time actor in a small time production....

I'm a snooze hitter. Not once, not twice and not even three times usually. I hit it upwards of 8 times...every morning. My husband on the other hand? He could get up on the first ring....old Army guy, ya know.

It's during that "half asleep, half awake" stage that I usually have my best thoughts and brightest ideas. It's also the clearest time of day for me personally to hear God.

Lights off. Warm under the covers. Not fully aware of what I need to be doing and still not yet in high gear to start the day.

This morning was no exception.

God clearly said to me this morning, "Why do you treat me like a big time actor in your small time production? Why do you think that I'm too big, too famous, too anything to show up for you? You've booked me. I said I'd come. Why, then, do you not believe that I will? And, by the way, who said your production is small time anyway? I didn't."

I nearly sat straight up. Rubbed the sleep from my eyes and looked around. It was a bit shocking and a bit hard to believe. I laid back down and thought about what He'd just said to me.

Mark and I are reading the book of Jeremiah together every night before we go to sleep. We just started it and the first few chapters are God pretty angry with His people for idolizing other gods and acting as if He was doing things wrong. Acting as if He wasn't there....

And God was right. I do treat Him as if He is too big for me, too big to care about what I have going on in my little "small time production". I struggle with His ability to see me or care about me on a daily basis. I KNOW that to be false but yet that's where the fat bastard has his biggest stronghold.

Mark and I are also reading a nightly devotional and last night was the difference between faith and trust. I have FAITH in God....I know who He is, I know He is there. But, trust? That I don't have....not enough, anyway. The example in the devotional was a wheel barrel and a tightrope across the Niagara Falls. I have faith that God could walk that tightrope and push the wheel barrel across with no problem. But....would I climb in that wheel barrel and let Him push me across the falls on that tightrope? Gulp. I don't think so.

And I believe that was God's point. I have faith in Him, I just don't trust Him enough to do what He says He will do.

Now what? I don't know the answer to that question or how to even begin to believe. He's worked in my life....seen it first hand on numerous occasions, but yet I still doubt.

So I will take today, right now, right this second as it comes and I will remind myself that HE IS HERE. He already showed up. He said He'd come and He did. That's all I can do and that's all I can ask of Him.

Amen and amen.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Prom 2010....

I see these pictures and not only do I flash back to when I was in high school and attending my prom, but I flash back to when Alli was just a baby. She used to sleep on my chest all night long on the couch because I was afraid to put her down. SIDS was huge in the early '90's and I was a worry wart momma (still am...not afraid to admit that!).

What a beautiful girl I have. She's 17 (and a half!), the world at her feet, the heart of a angel and just too stinkin' cute for her own good. I'm proud of her. So much so my heart aches.

Alli & Taylor....two peas in a pod....
Alli & Stephy....sweet, sweet girls....

They rented a Hummer limo (behind them). At my prom, I GOT to ride in my boyfriend's sisters navy blue PINTO. I know....these kids have NO idea what a real ride is. :0)


Alli & Nick

Arriving at the dance....

The sign that Mark and I hung....twice. Don't ask....

My babe....
And in a blink of an eye....they are all grown up with one foot out of the house. *sigh*

Monday, April 12, 2010

Doing God's work....


So our church has a "Spring Clean" campaign currently in the works. Basically its a way for our church to get out and bless those in our community with spring cleaning types of chores. Families can also volunteer to clean up our own church building and/or church grounds. My family chose to clean at our church. It's a huge building with a large parking lot and to be quite honest, sometimes in an effort to help others, we forget to help "ourselves". Not being selfish or anything, but often times people are so gung ho to get out in the community that they fail to see how they can be a blessing at home....just be the blessing where the blessing is needed. Know what I mean?

This past Saturday Mark and I and the girls spent the afternoon cleaning up the parking lot of our church and digging the landscaping rocks out of the grass from the snow plows this winter. I have to say, the amount of sand used this winter to keep our parking lot clean was amazing! And OMG...we probably hauled 8 tons of landscape rocks back to where they belong. (OK...maybe not 8 ton, but a LOT of rocks were moved! I'm just sayin'!)

While picking up those rocks, we laughed and joked and seriously enjoyed our work and that time together as a family. Our backs were sore and our hands were hurting, but doing God's work isn't always glamorious or easy. It changes you, though. Honest.

Taylor found a cool, heart-shaped rock. Carli had dirty hands. This is the combination of the two....

Our God is just so good. He can change even the hardest of hearts if you are willing to dig in and do a little work.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

I'm so excited I could piddle....

Yes...I said piddle. I'm so excited I could piddle.


As many of my faithful readers {cough -- one reader} know, I am a photographer. I fair weather photographer, but a photographer nonetheless. I don't have a studio of my own....borrow one when I absolutely must have one, but for the most part....I like NATURAL LIGHT.

And this, my friends, is the beginning of my busy season. Oh how I've missed my camera so.

I've spent the winter months trying to fumble through figure out my marketing strategy. I am not a marketing genius, but I think I've done alright with it.

And then today....I booked my very

{insert piddling!!}

I've done engagements....see here for the cutest couple EVER. I have another engagement shoot booked at the end of this month, actually. But a wedding....the happiest day of any bride's life. The day when all things change and the day when a couple professes who they are in each other before family and friends. And....a day for anything and everything to go wrong.

But I'm not even gonna entertain that idea. GOD has given me the talent. He has given me this couple. I will do Him proud and I will capture the love that Jamey and Matt have....even if I die trying.

Today is a good day. I seriously am so excited I could piddle.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Good just ain't good enough....

It's GOOD Friday.

And good just ain't GOOD enough.

So I'm changin' the name. Yup. You heard it here, folks. GOOD Friday is now called GLORIOUS Friday. Go ahead....pass it on.

I know you probably think I'm goofy, but dang it. Today is a GLORIOUS day. Do you know why? 'Cuz Jesus died today! Not glorious that He DIED for my crazy sins, but glorious because HE died for my crazy sins. See what I mean? Clear as a bell. :0)

I am RIGHT WITH GOD because He took all that off of me. I am RIGHT WITH GOD because He suffered so that I don't have to. I am RIGHT WITH GOD because it was HIS blood that was shed when it should have been mine. I am RIGHT WITH GOD because He sacrificed His Son so that I could have eternal life.

And I'm callin' all that GLORIOUS.

Sunday is comin'.....He rose from the dead and proved once and for all who He is and why He came. This Holy weekend reminds me of the sacrifice He made that makes me RIGHT WITH GOD. If you don't know Jesus as your Lord and Savior, I urge you to seek Him out. He is there waiting...all you have to do is ask Him in. Don't waste another minute of your life thinking today is just another Friday and Sunday is just another Sunday because TRUST ME....they aren't.

Happy GLORIOUS Friday, peeps. Our God is soooo.....GLORIOUS.